Mood swings.

Published June 8, 2016 by Anne Santos-Xi

Bakit ako naiinis? Tch.

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Published June 8, 2016 by Anne Santos-Xi

Ako: Mahal mo pa ba sya?

Sya: Oo

Just that one word. Two letters. And my heart just broke into pieces again. He loved her, still. I dont know what to feel rly. I am empty as fuck.

Morning Thoughts.

Published June 8, 2016 by Anne Santos-Xi

How to move on? Lmao. Tho I didnt had the chance to be in a relationship with him. He didnt liked me either. But why do I have to do this? Move on. Move on. Two words, easy to say but hard to do indeed.

I fell and I fell hard. Gaaaahhhhh

Wandering Thoughts. ☆

Published June 7, 2016 by Anne Santos-Xi

You. You just happened to be the man I wanted to be with. But I know, I had these mutual understandings with some guys isnt right. It is classified as un-loyalty lmao. You said I was a flirt but not to the extent that Im an actually a flirt but your words hits me like a knife. Your thoughts about me always matters first before them. But what did I do? I let you have that impression towards me now. It will surely take a long time again before you can trust me again like what we used to be before. You’re my almost. Almost..

I love your sharp tongue that could slay me with even just an “Okay” from you.
You care for me even if you always said that you were fed up.
You’re actually has this cute attitude that mesmerized me everytime. Every minute. Haha!
You’re just being you. The mean, rude, harsh and cold guy but is actually soft inside.
I love the way you appreciate little things even if you dont deserve little things baby. You deserve the world.
You’re good for me. Too good to be true.
You’re my life force. You make me smile in just a flicker. Just you against them and I’m fine. As long as I have you.
I love you. But Im an idiot for having secret affairs (ALMOST AN AFFAIR, MIND Y’ALL) Im an ungrateful bish argh.
I love you. But I am not for you. You’re hard to reach and all. Heavens and Earth is our society distance.
I adore you even if I dont know how you actually looks like or hear your voice, or your skintone, your height and your expressions. We are just over the internet but I shoved my feelings on you this deep. So deeo that I could pour water and get drown into it. But I bet that would be a one of a good kind of drowning.
I feel sorry for myself, you… for not loving me. for not seeing me as a real woman. for not giving me a chance to love you. for not taking it my feelings seriously.. for not noticing how much I love you.

Im sorry that I couldnt be perfect enough and Im sorry if Im all wrapped with flaws and bad attitude problems and for being a warfreak and frank.

I have to forget you..

BY ALL MEANS.

Published August 20, 2013 by Anne Santos-Xi

Mahirap mag isa. Mahirap makaramdam ng mag isa ka lang lalo na sa paligid ng mga taong akala mo eh kakampi ang turing sayo. Grabe. Ayoko sa ganitong buhay. Ayoko. Ayoko. Kung pwede lang sanang bumalik sa dati.

RidiculousThoughts.

Published July 16, 2013 by Anne Santos-Xi

Ako yung taong madaling magpadala sa galit. Sa nararamdaman. Tama nga sila, hindi ko kayang kontrolin yung feelings ko. May mga bagay na ginagawa ko pero ang totoo, labag sa loob ko.
Ako yung taong nakangiti pero sa loob, patay na. Wala manlang magbother na magtanong kung ayos lang ba ko.

Maganda na din to, yung ako lang nakakaalam ng nararamdaman ko, para hindi nila yun gamitin para maging mahina ako.

Minsan, nakakasawa nang magpanggap na okay lang sakin yung lahat. Gusto kong umiyak. Ang kaso, may makakaintindi ba sakin? Wala. Sarili ko lang kakampi ko. Wala nang iba.

I was born alone, and die alone.

Mga kaartehan ko lang sa buhay.

Published July 5, 2013 by Anne Santos-Xi

Babae ako. Pabago bago ang isip ko.
Lalo na ako. Hindi ako nag-i-stay sa isang decision hangga’t hindi ako sumasaya sa mga bagay na ginawa ko.

Ngayon, kahit mag-isa ako. Proud ako. Kasi hindi ko kailangan ng boyfriend para sumaya ako. Sa mga simpleng bagay lang na nagagawa ko kasama mga kaibigan ko, sapat na.
Nasasabi ko na matapang ako kasi walang nakakaalam na sa kabila ng mga ngiti sa labi ko, mga pacute na expression ko sa mga bagay bagay; ay ang isa PANG pagkatao na ako lang ang nakakakilala. Na pag nakita ng iba ay paniguradong hinding hindi na nila gugustuhin pang makita. Sa mga bagay na naiisip ko, hindi na lang ako kumikibo. Lagi kong dinadaan sa biro at kalokohan. Pero ang totoo, ayoko lang mainis at magalit sa mundo. Ayokong isipin na msyadong unfair yung mundo sakin. Pero thankful na din ako kasi kung hindi unfair ang mundo sakin, hindi ako magiging ganto katapang.

Masyadong random ang pag-iisip ko.

#MedyoBwiset.