Reality sucks. Yea I know. For a fangirl like me. Reality sucks even more.
I admire Xi Luhan so much to the point that I mentally rape him. Byuntae right? But it’s the truth.
Because I’m too busy noticing the other members of EXO, too busy collecting pictures of them, I forgot Luhan, not so totallt forgotten. It’s just I lose my focus on him.
But lately, I’ve been dreaming of him. Ahh, weird dreams I told you.
The first was; he was kissing me, showing me his manly side, in that dream, he’s envious of Kai. Because I admire Kai’s manliness. (and body too haha)
The second was, I introduced him to my family. And we took selca too! We’re officially a couple in MY DREAM. We’re going to SMEnt for some works. And after that, He asks me if it’s okay if he could take me out for a dinner. Ugh, When I woke up I was pissed off. I wish I lived in that dream. I don’t want to wake up that day.
The next was last night. That was the weirdest dream ever, for me.
In there, I’m a gangster. A gangster girl who fought a lot. Many people are scared of me because I’m a mafia there.
But, in that dream, everytime I see Luhan, there, I will cry a lot.
So I think Luhan was my weakness there.
When I woke up, (again) I feel so down. Another fantasy. Another dream that is IMPOSSIBLE to happen. Another hopeless thought, I guess.
And the last was a few hours ago.
I slept for an hour and a half, and he was in my dream again.
I don’t remember it clearly. But he was there.
All in my dreams, he was there. He is truly, madly in love with me in my dream. Which is soooooo IMPOSSIBLE to happen.
Am I too crazy? Coz I blog the thing that is bothering me right now. If only I was born beautiful enough for him to like me. If only I am the one that he’s referring as his Ideal Wife. His true love. If only..
And another odd thing. His cover of “I will let you go” when I downloaded it yesterday and played it, i felt the dejavu. Cause I think I’ve heard that song and that voice.
Ah.. I sound so crazy right now. I’m ridiculous right? And pathetic too. If anyone sees this, they will think I’m a feeler or what.
Ahh, I better get some sleep before it gets worse. Ha-ha! 🙂
P.S
School days are near. I will be focusing on my studies more than EXO. Hais.
Bangtan and Exo is ♡ 